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Okay, I might go a little crazy on all the photo's of Molly but this obsession really started in the 6th grade when I got my first 110 camera. Really. My husband still thinks this is weird and told me that if he comes home and Molly has make-up on, he is taking her and running away.

Here is a our latest photo session.

If you understand my love of boa's you will totally get this picture.

"Horn's in the air, bitches"

Yes, she is that good.

"I need more tambourine"



Please note the fabulous jewels, given to her by the crazy lady from PA!

Too much?

Cleaning

Raymond: "You know if you saw someone else's bathroom, that looked like ours you would talk shit."

Me: "What?"

Raymond: "You would never let someone get away with it."

This conversation took place Saturday evening before bed. He is so right. I don't know what happened to me. My bathroom was so gross and I can only admit to this because none of you can see it. He took Molly out on a bike ride Sunday morning and I......I cleaned my bathroom from floor to ceiling and now I want to sleep in there because it is the cleanest room I got.

Raymond always says that you can tell if someone is working hard, just look to see if their tongue is out.

Easter

I can't believe it how long this has taken me to write. Time just flies! Easter was pretty uneventful for us. Raymond had to work the weekend and our plan was to go to the fire station for an Easter egg hunt. However, wind + dry conditions = fires = party was cancelled.

Easter Sunday we woke up to an Easter basket full of goodies. I debated over getting her an Easter basket because I think she is too young to know or even care and why waste the money? But in the long run I like to play, so the child care place where she goes to was having a fund raiser for families that are having a rough time, financially so I bid on this basket and won! Yeah! It was perfect because there wasn't any candy but had a beanie baby, bunny ears, coloring book, crayons, a book, stickers, scissors and a few other nick knacks. I don't feel like this was a waste because the money went to charity and we can use this stuff later on and I didn't have to eat any of it!

Molly had a pretty green dress that her Aunt Nelly gave her but within..oooh..I would say five minutes she spit up. She rarely spits up but today, she had a pretty dress on and just couldn't resist.

We ended up going to a state park, had a picnic and a little hike and came back home. Nice simple day, couldn't ask for much more.

Picture of Molly in her second Easter dress for the day.

Crawling Treadmill

Does it make me a bad mom that I find this totally hilarious?

Walking

I am not sure what will make Molly an official "walker" but today she has progressed in her walking skills. She took off walking from the couch into the living room, even fell a few times but just picked herself up.

I also just got access on-line to Molly's one year old birthday pictures and I must share them. Here a few of my favorites.

Thank You, Oprah!

I worry alot about being a good mom. ALOT. I resisted having a baby for a long time because I was so scared of being a bad mom. Now I eat out of nervousness (yeah, now I have an excuse) and grow gray hairs because I am concerned that I don't talk to her enough, I don't stimulate her enough, I used a plastic container that had BPA, I used a lotion that caused her rash, that I don't spend enough time with her....oh shit maybe I spend too much time with her and she will be dependent on me and don't get me started on immunizations.

I see other mommy's out in public and they are all smiles, with nice clothes and brushed hair and then there is me with my Liberian bun and stains on my white hanes t-shirts. Sometimes I am really tired and feel like the weight of the world is riding on my butt. Other mommy's don't really look like this to me. I really have felt alone in the new mommy journey and feel like I am the only person to go through this.

I do have an amazing husband but I don't think he truly understands. I have been following a few "mommy blogs" that makes me feel like there might possibly be others like me but today has been the best day for my mommy self esteem.

I don't typically watch Oprah, but I read she was doing a show on motherhood so I tuned in. It was all about motherhood and mommy's sharing secrets. There were ladies on there admitting that they had not taken showers in weeks, that their relationships with their husbands had changed and one admitted that she gathered her kids school lunch from the snacks she had in the car. There is even a book that two mommy's wrote about "mommy confessions". I think I will get it and make sure there are women out there like me that really can't seem to get it together.

Thank you Oprah, although other women might not be wearing old, stained, white, hanes t-shirt, or going around with un-brushed hair there are others who feel less than adequate. As sad as it is, it makes me feel better.

Party, Party, Party!

Today we went to my girlfriends, youngest son's birthday party. It was at one of those inflatable bouncy warehouses. Lots of things to jump on and lots and lots of kiddos. I did not think there would be anything for Molly to really do since she is not walking but my girlfriend has done a whole lot for me and I love her kids so we were going.

Well there was one bouncy house that was for kids age three and under and no one was in it. Yep, I squeezed my little butt through the tiny door and Molly and I went jumping. I now totally understand why mommy's and daddy's pay $10 to let their kids jump and play. They are totally engrossed and I think you could sit down and have a conversation or coffee before you are interrupted. Molly loved it. She crawled, tried to stand up, tried to jump, fell over a lot and did get hurt or cry. This also really wore her out and she feel asleep within two seconds of sitting in the car seat.

It was a lovely party and so happy to have discovered that places like this exist. Take a look at these action shots.

Finally she stood still and I was able to get one clear photo out of 35 pictures taken.